I've been gone for a while I know. Mix of a lot of things, but hopefully I am more sorted and can start this up again.
It is the summer holidays!!
Six weeks or so of no school, no routines, and freedom!!
Like most lone parents (and probably just parents in general) summer holidays fill me with a mix of joy and cold dread.
But then again, there is no routine, no going to activities, and I get my babies all day, every day... ALL day. EVERY day - where they can fight with each other, and with me, and not let me think for 5 mins.
I am always wary of telling them "this week we shall do x, y, z" or even "tomorrow we shall do x, y, z" because holidays are unpredictable. With the best will in the world I can plan to go to Moors Valley (trees, play area etc) tomorrow, but then it can pour with rain/the car break down/a child be awake all night etc so I am not physically capable of tramping about Moors Valley. Then they have their crushed little faces because Mummy failed to deliver. So instead I decided to go with Wing It. I like Wing It. I wake up, look out of the window, and take their moods and my mood into account before planning things.
It is a learning curve summer, but so far, despite wanting to curl up and hide when the fighting gets too much, it is good.
Been doing this lone parent thing for 2 years now, this parent thing for 9 years, and this is the summer that I finally feel like I am getting the hang of it.